Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I know I need to, but...

I need to write more, but I never know what to say. I have so many thoughts running around through my head, and try as I might to organize them, I come up empty-handed. I have a diary, a Tumblr blog, a prayer journal, and this blog, and I still usually just describe myself through pictures. I am a very visual person, and I have always felt that I could let photos of things that I like "speak" for me. Maybe that's a reason why I get really anxious when I have to talk to other people, or that I forget words that I want to use in conversation even though I know a great deal of descriptive words. I always tell people that I can't speak very well (I stutter quite a bit, forget words, dyslexic talking, whathaveyou), but I can definitely reveal a lot more about myself through writing. On the contrary, I have a lot to say, but I don't know how to express my words in an effective way. Frustration overcomes me when speaking to other people, and at the same time my thoughts all weave together and leave me in a blubbering mess. Please tell me I am not the only one like this! I have had people interrupt me in mid-thought to tell a story of their own because I was too preoccupied on trying to say what was on my mind eloquently. That is one of the reasons why I am so quiet around people, and even when I do talk people can barely hear me. Another reason why I am quiet is because I like to listen to people speak more than I like to talk. Plus, I'm shy. I am the quiet observer that has much to say and strong convictions, but comes out sounding like an imbecile when she opens her mouth. Anyway... I have recently friends with a girl named Callie on Tumblr. She is so sweet and intelligent, and I love talking with her. She seems so interesting. I hope the friendship lasts, as I feel we have much in common and great potential. We can only speak through Tumblr for the time being, but that is okay. If you would like to visit her blog, it is called Lighthouse and Pinetrees. It's such a lovely little blog. For those of you who love nature, poetry, intellectual thinkers, and mellow photography, this is your girl! She has a lot to say as well. I actually found her blog when she started to follow another Tumblr blog of mine, Sophie and The White Rose. A little creep that I am, I am always interested in browsing other people's blogs that have at least a little something in common with me...especially if they're interested in an obsession of mine. More on that later. Anyway, I was looking through her blog, and her personal entries spoke to me. The way she sees and feels about things are very much like the way I do. Also, the calm atmosphere of her blog soothed me. I am going to end this entry today with a photo I took this past weekend of flowers and such. I hope you enjoy your day.

"Leave it to God. It is an astonishing thought. It can become a life-transforming thought … unclench the fists of your spirit and take it easy … What deadens us most to God’s presence within us, I think, is the inner dialogue that we are continuously engaged in with ourselves, the endless chatter of human thought. I suspect that there is nothing more crucial to true spiritual comfort … than being able from time to time to stop that chatter…"
Frederick Buechner

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Hello today! As you guys know (at least those who have been keeping up with me), I have always been known as 'A Lotta Girl, A Lotta Style.' Well, thinking about it, I don't really have that much style, but I do have a lot of creativity! Why not wrap the contents of my blog around my everyday mind? I feel that would be in the best interest for all of us. I kind of feel like I have been hiding myself from you guys with my former website persona. I'm not a fashionista (HOWEVER, I adore clothes in the worst way.) I don't know why I would portray myself to be anything but myself: artsy, unique, crafty, nerdish, and so many other traits. So here is my website makeover: I'm going to transform my blog to portray myself how I want to be shown! I hope you guys enjoy the change, and I hope you get an insight on who I really am. For starters, I am going to add the beautiful photos I took of my mother's garden the other day.
For the photo effects, I have used the filters on Instagram, Path, and Pixlr-O-Matic and sometimes even in unison. For the bright coral roses, I used the filter Peter on Pixlr-O-Matic. I felt that it complimented the color of the flowers quite well. My mother has a beautiful garden, and I am just so proud of her for creating a wonderful mixture of color and flower.
The sky was so heavenly that day! I don't understand why people feel disdain toward cloudy days. You can just sit back and watch them as they slowly pass by, and you may even see a cat or a butterfly!
I gave her this beautiful Mother's Day card because she loves art (she's an artist too) and flowers. I decorated the front of the card slip, which was a glorious hot-pinkish coral color. We both love bright colors.
And this little gem is a photo of the past three generations of women from my mother's side of the family: My grandmother Jeanette, my mother Jeanette, and me! Fun fact: My grandfather wanted my name to be Jeanette too! Haha, how funny would that have been.
How was your Mother's Day? What did you give to your mother that was very special to the both of you?
"Please be a traveler, not a tourist. Try new things, meet new people, and look beyond what’s right in front of you. Those are the keys to understanding this amazing world we live in." Andrew Zimmern

Photos via artisticaudrey - Please credit!