My Alter

I have 3 blogs now!
This one is for my more girly and creative side
Psychology/Neurology is for my more serious and informative side
And the ramblings is for what it says; ramblings. They may be pleasant, they may be depressing, but read at your own will.

Anyways! I'm going to try to get back into the swing of things here on blogspot. I have two new favorite songs now; Teenage Dream by Katy Perry and Deuces by Chris Brown! I'm excited because I haven't really liked anything new that has came out in the past couple of years except for a few exceptions.
My day was pretty good, I talked to my mother about some issues that were going on inside of my head, and that really let a lot of stress out. I had to take a test in my American History class which I hoped I did well on! I really have an urge to go shopping.
Btw, I would like to introduce a few new trends this fall that I would like to try!

- 1970s hair! I love the 1960s and 70s anyways, so this is an exciting trend for me to try! I have the tools anyways, so it won't be a problem :)
- More feminine silhouettes! Yes! I love feminine things, and when this was introduced into the fall trends, I was very happy. I thought the 1940s, 50s, and early 60s were just so classy (Audrey Hepburn? Jackie Kennedy?). Those role models made me proud of my femininity.
- Flats! They have been in for quite some time now, but they never get old!! I have a ton as it is, but I want some more :D
- Mod! As I have said before, I love the 1960s, and bold prints and styles make me happy. I also love crazy and unique looking things, and let me tell you, the 1960s were superior for that.
- Natural/Golden makeup pallet - I never really liked bold eyeliner on me anyways because my hooded eyes made me look strange. I will definitely be looking forward to going home and looking through what I have in my makeup collection.
- Clogs? Perhaps. I like them okay, but weren't they popular back in the 90s? Retro? Wow, the 90s have become retro now!
- Low back/low necklines - I am getting to the age where I can actually wear these things! I think low back-lines and neck-lines are so sexy, and I would really like to go shopping to find these things!
Does anyone know where I can find things like this? Greatly appreciated!!

Well, that all I have to write for now, as I have to get home (I'm at my college computer room, bleh)!

Have You Ever Felt You Had Just Gone...

Insane? I feel that way all the time. I think I need to see someone to talk to. I'm so anxious and I can't stop worrying. Never. It's impossible for me. I stay awake at night because so many thoughts run through my mind, and they make me worry even more because I'm not sleeping.
So many problems, so little time.
I get so nervous, I start shaking. I actually have little interest in social interactions (even blogspot). I get so nervous talking to people, and that shows in how I present myself to people. I am what you call the wall-flower. I have low-self confidence, and I usually keep my eyes averted downward. I want to change that though. It feels as if there's a bubble around me, and it's getting smaller as time goes on. I yearn for social relationships, but I avoid them because they scare me. I know, this doesn't really help my circumstances talking about this, but I need to get it out. No one cares about anyone else's problems, right? Haha.
It's shit like that that makes me so inverted.
I care about people's problems. I listen to people all the time. But it seems as if I don't matter to them. It's as if I'm just there for comfort, but I can't have any problems. It intimidates them. It makes them less secure. But I have problems too dammit!! I need someone to listen to me and to understand me.
I'm not going to go into any more detail about how I think I'm crazy, because I'd rather not talk about that. Hypocritical, right? HAHA!! I want to talk about my problems, but then again I won't!
I don't know what I want. I'm confused. I want this, but then I don't want that.
While other kids my age talk about celebs and movies and rap singers, I like to talk about the weather and the news and other things most kids don't know or care about. I feel so alone.
And when I become interested in something "cool" like fashion, no one wants to talk about it! Maybe I have more information about fashion than they do? Idk.
Facebook is a crock of shit, isn't it?
You have 500+ people who don't give a shit whether you're happy or not. They only want you to make themselves look more popular. I add a lot of people because I actually give a damn.
Sorry for the rambling...
no one cares anyways, right? haha

Something I've Noticed...

About myself...
I feel as if I'm changing from being a nervous high-school kid into a secretly daring young adult, you know?
I want to try new things, I don't care what. When I was in psychology class, my teacher told us about the phases of our lives in which we wanted to experiment or we already knew who we were. Back then, I thought I knew who I was, you know? I was this pure, troubled, smart, tight girl who tried do dress her best. But now I'm beginning to feel that I need a change, and that I still need to search for what I can be. I'm still troubled because I'm scared of reaching out, but I'm also scared that if I don't take the chance, I'll regret missing it. I'm kind of dissapointed in myself because I thought I knew what I wanted and who I was, but I don't.
I want to try new food, try new experiences, try new clothes, try new everything! I'm scared I'll do something stupid though...
I'm such a worry-wart and I can never make up my mind on how I should think. Haha, but who does?
I'm ready to get out into life and experience new things and for people to just stop mentally limiting me on what I can and cannot do. Just because I'm a girl, just because I was born without a right hand, just because I'm short, just because I've never had the experience, and just because I'm young! For you adults, don't you remember when you were young? You wanted to experiment? I know most of you have grown wiser, but let us find out for ourselves what we want in life and how we want to get there. Please?
Another thing about my situation is that I live in a small town, and people tend to gossip and judge. Which in some ways, I don't care, but I also don't want to get myself into a place that will lose the respect of the people I care about.
I just don't know...

I'm back!

It's been since January that I've posted anything, and I am so sorry! My senior year in high school was such a fuss, and I needed all that I could to concentrate on my work. Summer is here, and I am happy to say that I will be writing a lot more!

Any suggestions on the next topic?

Quiz Time!

Hi! I thought it would be a really cute idea to make a quiz for you! I used to have an account on Quizilla.com, and I was just going through the website again and the idea popped into my head! If you want more quizzes, Quizilla has tons of them! (My answer will be parenthesized)
Yes - if this applies to you. No - if this does no apply to you.

How Girly are You?

1. You get your hair done on a regular basis: yes or no (No)
2. You would consider pink to be one of your favorite colors: yes or no (Yes)
3. "Legally Blonde" or "13 Going on 30" is on your list of favorite movies: yes or no (Yes)
4. You love to get your nails done on a regular basis: yes or no (No)
5. You love to shop at least once a week, even if it consists of buying one item: yes or no (Yes)
6. Your bathroom is filled with so many beauty items, that sometimes you can't even organize the cabinets: yes or no (Yes)
7. You love to flirt: yes or no (Yes)
8. You own at least 5 pairs of heels: yes or no (Yes)
9. You own at least 5 skirts: yes or no (Yes)
10. You own at least 5 dresses: yes or no (Yes)
11. You hate the thought of camping: yes or no (No)
12. You absolutely LOVE blogs about fashion and girly topics: yes or no (Yes)
13. You have a fashion/girly blog of your own: yes or no (Yes)
14. You love to read Vogue, Glamour, Seventeen, Cosmo, or other girl-based magazines: yes or no (Yes)
15. You think the "Gothic" trend is repulsive: yes or no (No)
16. You actually think VW Beetles are so cute: yes or no (Yes)
17. You get emotional very easily: yes or no (Yes)
18. Even if you are skinny, there are days you feel like you can't wear ANYTHING: yes or no (Yes)
19. Sometimes you have NOTHING to wear at all, eventhough you just went shopping last week: yes or no (No)
20. You love to talk about makeup, gossip, event planning, etc: yes or no (Yes)
21. Elle Woods is one of your inspirations: yes or no (Yes)
22. You love Thirty-One: yes or no (Yes)
23. As you were young, you participated in dance, ice-skating, color-guard, cheerleading, or gymnastics: yes or no (Yes)
24. Horror movies terrify you: yes or no (No)
25. You hate breaking your nails: yes or no (No)
26. You would never hold a job that consists of the outdoors or possible nail-breaking, hair-messing, lipstick-smearing, or heel-breaking possibilities: yes or no (N0)
27. You do yoga: yes or no (No)
28. You follow fashion trends like your tiny dog follows you: yes or no (Yes)
29. You LOVE chick flicks: yes or no (Yes)
30. You own a small dog; mini-poodle, chihuahua, mini-dauchsund, etc: yes or no (Yes)
31. You LOVE glitter and anything that shines: yes or no (Yes)
32. Sometimes you think you need therapy for your shopping habits: yes or no (Yes)
33. No matter WHERE you go, either to the grocery store or even at your house, you always have to have a little mascara and/or lipgloss on: yes or no (No)
34. If you are in high-school, you plan on being in a sorority: yes or no (Maybe)
35. You love Victoria Secret PINK: yes or no (Yes)
36. You love Victoria Secret in general: yes or no (Yes)
37. For you that have children; you LOVE getting your child's name monogrammed on almost everything: yes or no (N0)
38. You love monograms period: yes or no (Yes)
39. You love diamonds, rubies, sapphires, pearls, etc: yes or no (Yes)
40. A perfect outfit always consists of a strand of pearls: yes or no (Yes)
41. You love babies, puppies, kittens, or any other baby animals: yes or no (Yes)
42. You watch shows like Gossip Girls, The Hills, ANTM, Project Runway, etc: yes or no (Yes)
43. You love to tan: yes or no (No)
44. You have a TON of accessories, some that you have no place to put: yes or no (Yes)
45. You love fashion in history: yes or no (Yes)
46. You giggle A LOT, even when the joke wasn't funny: yes or no (Yes)
47. You act dumb in front of guys just so they'll think your cute: yes or no (No)
48. You love SUMMER: yes or no (Yes)
49. You love Coach, Louis Vuitton, Dooney & Bourke, Gucci, etc: yes or no (No, well..Coach, yes)
50. You use facemasks at least once a week: yes or no (No)

Haha, sorry that was such a LONG quiz, but I just kept thinking up things to put!
Of course, if you put mostly yeses, you are probably girly, and if you put mostly nos, you probably aren't. If you have an in-between amount then you are in the middle, yadeyadeyadah.

My answers: 34/50.

My answers may show that I am very girly, but being girly is not all my life. I love other things that guys and other girls would like to talk about too, such as cars, football, astrology, medicine, architecture, etc. So if you think I only talk and love girl things, you are wrong my friend. Actually, girls at my school probably don't really know how girly I can be. I'm sort of a normal person/nerd I guess, lol. And I am definitely not saying that there is anything wrong with girly people, but I'm not just that either. I'm all-around average.

What were your results? Do you agree with them?

*Photos are from Haute Design, and {this is glamorous}

Beauty Secrets <3

My mom and I was talking about each other's beauty secrets we used over the years, and I decided I would like to write a post about "beauty secrets" that I use. I will also write about some of the secrets I have learned over the years.

One "beauty secret" I use to take the static out of my hair (and to make it smell good in the process): I spray my favorite perfume lightly (or heavy on how light the perfume is) on my brush, and brush it through my hair. It may or may not to take the static out, but it works for me, and that's why I am sharing this secret. Also, when you want to flip your hair for a guy, it makes the smell travel when you do this :)

A 'beauty secret" my mother told me of is when you're about to go to the prom or your first date, and you're scared about your hands being sweaty when your date wants to hold hands, put some antiperspirant on your hands. Or deoderant, which one works for you. (If you wanted to go with the deoderant, I would get one for under your arms and just one for your hands).

Another my mother told me about is breaking raw eggs into your hair during a shower to make your hair fuller and soft. You would wash your hair with shampoo first, then use the eggs, and then wash your hair again and rinse.

I also heard about using avocados for face masks, or using honey during your showers to make your hair soft and shiny.

Another "beauty secret" is to use petroleum jelly (or vasaline) on your "hot spots" (wrists, behind the ears, inside the arm, neck, etc..) to make lighter scents stay on your body.

What are some "beauty secrets" that you use(d)? Did they work for you?

* pictures are used from Vogue.com and Photobucket.com

I'm sick :(

Ugh, there's nothing like being sick, huh? I just wanna go to bed, watch a movie, and text my boyfriend <3